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Name: marie
Country: Macao
Metro: Macao
Birthday: 10/9/1980
Gender: Female
Interests: reading, travel, driving around, good music, good movies, good food, drinking with friends, chatting, knowing new people, learning new things
Expertise: making people happy
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MSN: reckah@hotmail.com
Member Since:
8/4/2003
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| Living with a guyI just realised, two months have passed since my last entry.
Wow.
Hasn't it been quick.
People who used to write everyday (which I'm subscribed to) doesn't write much anymore either.
What has changed?
I don't know if I've mentioned to the people here.
But I moved out of the family house last end of November.
Since then, a guy frd have moved in.
A Japanese guy, one year older than me, same height (or shorter) than me, which we call M.
At first, hes been going to and back from Japan (for work) and he finally "settled" in from... end February this year.
Other friends around keep joking about me and the guy being a "couple".
Some friends think we are fuck buddies.
When I first knew this guy, it was through a mutual frd from Mixi (A Japanese community site) - the mutual frd came to Macau and asked to meet up and M tackled along. Sometime after that, the mutual guy disappeared, and I started teaching M Cantonese.
And then.. somehow M moved in.
At the early stages where we just became frds, he was totally in the "don't even have to consider" group.
Even when I was teaching him Cantonese and we became closer, he was in the "not even in my dreams" group. (I mean as a potential bf)
After living together for.... two months?
He has moved from "its impossible" to "it could happen".
Which is frankly speaking, kind of scary.
Its not that hes been helpful in the house or anything like that.
But from first knowing him, he has grown.
Another girlfriend has also realised this and mentioned it before (she used to bully him but she kind of respects him the last time we met).
In many things, I am still more capable than him. (And I dislike weak guys, I can't date guys weaker than me). Come to think of it... I can't really think of anything that hes better than me... *rolls eyes*
Oh, aside from baseball video games....... mmm.... and aside from mandarin pingyin and some Japanese... lol..
I thought if I ever lived in the same house with a guy, it would be a guy with benefits. But this one, totally no, not money wise, not help wise, not sex wise, no. Its even more like me taking care of him... mm.... (which I don't really mind).
We talk about sex, money, women, guys, I help him with his studies (hes going for a course to get a macau tour guide license), tease him about the girl he likes which hes too shy to ask to be his gf..
We make dirty jokes.... (he would threaten to tickle my pussy when I tickle his waist), he would tell me about the new weird 'features' in saunas (a woman hanging on a rope from the roof giving u a blowjob or sumthin -_-).
Its really quite fun.
At first, we didn't talk as much.
He used to be pretty shy and uneasy around women.
Coz Japanese society has made men and women very dsitant. Touch each other and u get blamed for sexual harrassment. When I sit on the couch, he would sit on the floor (the couch is tiny), but now we will both be squeezing or lying on the tiny couch.
If the live in guy was a boyfriend, I think we would have had lots of arguments...
How he never cleans the house or dishes, how he couldn't target his pee correctly when hes drunks.. how he only plays games and doesn't talk to me... etc etc
I just realised, its so much easier living with a guy with nothing related to.
I don't expect anything out of him and he doesn't expect anything out of me.
Since it doesn't even involve sex, theres no arguments for "I'm too tired" etc too.
If he moves out after summer (which his initial plans were), I think I'd probably start searching for another guy roommate.
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| Why had she thought that if they were married, she'd get the attention she wanted?
Why didn't she understand that if they did get married, she'd become more and more of an accessory
That was a pattern.
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| today....is very warm.... in fact.... its a little hot....
at such a warm day...
my arcade (where I work) is fixing the air conditioning system........ no air conditioning....... no moving air..... (even the fan has to be turned off)..... uggghh....
i'm starting to have trouble breathing....... T_T........
the income yesterday was very good..... i dont know what pushed it up so much yesterday............ i hv no idea how i can keep it going at that rate..........
a canadian couchsurfer is staying at my place since yesterday. hes on a 7month trip around asia..... its amazing how some people can do that.....
how much money should i have..... to feel secure enough to travel around for so long?.... aside from the money i need to save up for the family...... the money i'll need while travelling.... the money i'll need after travel before getting a job............... i wonder if i will ever get to travel for months again........
if income can keep as good as yesterday everyday for the next few months.... (better yet, above)..... maybe i would request a month off around october................ was originally plannin to save up and buy a flat this year........ but maybe i am destined to stay free..... not to hv mortgages or burdens........... i dont even know if i am going to stay in macau forever......... do i need a flat here? mmmmmmm.......
how do people plan for their future?
why dont i ever seem to be able to do that?
am i still too young? or in other words, childish?
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| one of the stupidest question a guy could ask....scenario: boy and girl had sex ..... three years ago...... ... twice.... only...
boy:
so when can i hv fun with you again?
girl:
i dont think theres any possibilities
boy:
why?
girl:
not interested
boy:
u r not interested in me or u lost interest in sex?
girl:
does it matter?
boy:
yes
in most cases, the girl just dont hv interest in you
so dont ever ask that question, or u will get a painful answer n it will be stuck in your head forever and you will suck in sex even more.
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| the bread tree ran away面包樹出走了.... a Chinese novel
For the first time ever, I have actually read and finished a Chinese novel - and a Hong Kong author too.
I have read various short stories or 'exchange diaries' of various Chinese authors from Taiwan........ ... but is it discrimination? or... i dont know... but I never had any interest to read a full novel........
So... this 'bread tree ran away' seems to have been quite popular for a while.
Its a love novel (seems like thats the main topic in Hong Kong writing.... thats just my thought... I cannot say thats a fact).
This novel, was brought to me by my alcohol friend..... drinking friend.
Its about a girl, blindly in love with a boy.
They have broken up once, but they got back together.
Then another girl comes up, and original girl finds boy with that girl.
Boy denies anything with new girl, but old girl doesn't believe and leaves.
Then original girl meets a new boy and as she is trying to forget the old boy she falls in love with the new boy.
Original boy breaks up with the new girl, tells the original girl he still loves her.
Original girl is already with new boy, tells the original boy you are so selfish you only love yourself. I will not fall for you again.. denies him.
Original girl and new boy goes on well.. they go on some fab trip for nye countdown....
Before heading out to the nice restaurant for the countdown, original girl gets a call from her friend...... the new girl had informed original girl's frd that the original boy had disappeared for six hours after diving somewhere.
Original girl hangs up the phone, with complex feelings, and go on out with the new boy, all the while lost and confused in the head.
And then the novel ends.
EEEEEHHHHHH...
the book was an easy read.. the words were not difficult..... but some of the song lyrics in it.... i cannot understand...... would i recommend this book?..... i dont understand the greatness in the book.....
maybe it is one of those i cant understand the 'in the trend' things.... or maybe my chinese was not good enough to understand the novel fully.
it was a weird read
oh, but there was a part in the novel that i found amusing
original girl asked new guy why he broke up with his ex
new guy said his ex claimed he didnt love her, that she couldn't feel his 'love'
original girl ask new guy did you love her?
new guy said he 'cared about her'.
original girl ask, do you think about her everyday? do you miss her? are you afraid of losing her?
new guy answered no
original girl says, what u had was 'like', you liked her, you didnt love her
what?
that is the definition of love? u think about the other everyday n miss him all the time n is afraid of losing her?
that is very different from other definitions i have heard. if u really really loved someone, u dont need to possess him but will be happy when hes happy and wish for his very best...
...... ?
what is your definition of love?
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